Posted by: Dan | November 26, 2009

For the Bear

Over the last few years, I had someone lovely and unexpected come into my life — I nicknamed him ‘the Bear’.  There have been several rough patches during these years and always the Bear was there for me.  At my lowest moments, he would come and sit silently with me… just letting me know I was loved.  When I broke my ankle, he would help me to and from the bathroom.  When I was returning from a long and stressful day at work, he would often meet me afterwards with joy and affection.  When my wife was away visiting family, he always helped me pass the time.

I told him everything; we played, we fought, we laughed, we cried.  Through it all, all he ever asked was to love and to be loved.

Then about two weeks ago, the Bear started getting sick.  He got worse and worse, and late one night last week, I had to rush him to the emergency hospital because he was in a lot of pain.  I wasn’t sure what would happen, but I knew I wanted to be there for him… after everything he had helped me through, I was going to make sure that I was there for him to help him through.

But I couldn’t be there for him… and my friend died that night.  Before he passed away, I held him in my arms and cried so hard that no sound could come out.  I said goodbye, I said I loved him, I said I was sorry… and then he was gone.  I think the last pieces holding together my slowly breaking heart gave out that night.

So long, Bear, you were beautiful and full of love.  I’ll miss you buddy.  Life won’t be the same without you.

The Bear

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Responses

  1. What a beautiful homage. Losing an animal hurts quite differently than anything else.

    What a beautiful picture of him.

  2. I complain about my two cats, but they really have been such constant companions in our home as well.

    Touching tribute, thank you and the Lord comfort you.

    Don in AZ

  3. 3 1/2 years ago I owned a kitten for only 4 weeks. I still can’t think of her without feeling a shocking amount of pain and sorrow and tightness in my chest and throat:

    http://villagidiot.livejournal.com/6837.html

    In fact, I was in complete disbelief when I discovered a few minutes ago that this occurred 3 1/2 years ago already!

    I wish I didn’t know what you feel like right now.

    -Josh

  4. I got a text from my sister on Tuesday last week.

    Our dog died. I’m not in the same state and won’t be for 3 more weeks. I wish I could have said goodbye.

  5. Dan,

    I’m really sorry to hear that. I lost one of my family’s cats last spring and I know what you must be feeling: http://mnfu.wordpress.com/2009/05/30/walking-out-of-the-vet-with-an-empty-cat-carrier/. Cats are strange and wonderful companions.


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